The Orange Seed - Part 1

"The Concern of Tomorrow"

It is apparent to me (and it has been for a little while) that many people tend to lives their life in an automatic pilot mode. This proverbial mode is one where, in layman's terms, one sticks to a script. They are unaware that they're but mere paws in the greater scheme of things ,possibly as useful as the talking dead.

I see it all the time at from paying closer attention, it is as almost as if it is planned. The most knowledgeable can't make 1 + 1 to equal 3 then if any hint of logic is put into this game called life then consider this...



What of the media that shows and broadcasts, sex, violence, drug abuse and insanity; what of the fashion trends that tends to be more revealing every minute, what of the objectification of woman, what of the demoralisation of men, and most importantly what of the weak-minded who choose to follow.

It is apparent to me that neither intellect nor compassion are put into making decisions any longer. The next time you chose to listen to a song ask yourself: how does this truly help me and the others around me? or how about do I even like the song? Am I simply following a trend?

If your answer for any of these is that "The beat is catchy" to leave an answer so vague, then you have already lost the battle.

When the mind or heart does not know, it uses the generic escape route - quite logical I may say. But it is that vagueness that has us unaware of the world around us, and how our actions affect our immediate environment and by extension the world.

"Do this because everyone's doing it" is very open ended. It it open to the assault of the "why". I believe that it is designed this way, but I'll delve into this in part two.

To the selected few, their consciousness allows then to see farther than the average which is good as this allows them to make better decisions. The feeling of a moment seems to dictate the choice made. There are many quotes that would support this behaviour, most popularly "Live for Today, because Tomorrow is not promised" but what happens when tomorrow comes?

That above quote while true was never meant as "blow all your assets and act unintelligently because you might die tomorrow and if you do die you'll have lived a life without fun"...no! That quote means make TODAY COUNT. To add to it, make live easier for someone, make a difference somewhere because when you die, for the most part, the general public won't care how much fun you had.

Your death leaves behind your memory, so how will you be remembered?

Now is the only reality, which is true, and now is continuous and everlasting, and since we live in the now, you too are everlasting... so I ask why worry about tomorrow. Create your own future today!


You may be relieved of your physical body but live forever in the memory of history, or according to your religion, you may transcend to the spiritual realm and live forever there, of you may reincarnate into another form. But we know not the complete truth, but most of us believe that life doesn't end here...

So my advice to add virtue is "Live every act as if it were your last" because believe me my friend, those who say "Live today, because tomorrow is not promised" do not have death in mind, it is only an excuse to justify their irrational behaviour. And if you truly want to follow that quote in the wrong sense, then I suggest you never make a plan again... because that would be hypocritical.


To be continued...

Change the world
Change thyself

Codename: One Who Saves - Part 3

The Balancing Act made Live

Truly coming to an understanding of self, I knew what it was that made me feel like I had a purpose, and that I was making people's lives easier, better, or simply adding some kind of value. It was the only thing I was probably good at... even if there was not any emotional connection between me and the person, I was almost compelled to help those less fortunate than myself. It was so bad that my Mother would sometimes call me a "Good Friday Bobolee" it's a 'Trinidadian' slang for a pushover, but she would, most of the time praise me for my good heart.

The fact that I knew how to add value, although a power perceived only for good, I did at times use it to my advantage. "How so?" people may ask, after all I'm helping people. Well in terms of females I would usually offer myself in the same mannerisms of friendship and, while I would be there for them, help them, and attempt to be their "knight in shining armour" I was just getting them to like me. This technique would have been used on multiple girls at a time, and at times I would find myself in a race against my own pride. I became so cocky that I honestly believed, that with my system, I could get any girl to like me. Bear in mind that I am 12 years old coming to this conclusion.

However, when crossed into teenage years, I started to wonder why it is that my system would work. It was then I started to become obsessed with the mind and how people thought. But in my mind, the only way that this could happen is if I expose myself to as much personalities as I could; already being a person with a sense of humour, and fairly unemotional I was able to get into many different roles and not get attached to any single personality. I was having a blast, I was able to identify with anyone, older girls were amazed at how mature I was, hard-to-get girls were amazed at how I ignored them, heart-broken girls were amazed at how nice I was and the list goes on. A lot of guys didn't like me...BUT who cared?

Of course this "talent" came with a price. The price: I had no idea who I truly was for a moment. I would, almost every time, look in the mirror and have no idea who I was staring at. This was not in a manner of my emotions being conflicted. But I allowed myself to be so faceless that I would ask, Who are you? to the mirror.

Luckily, I was able to return to myself, however, traces of this power were left in my mind and would manifest on a later date.

As the months went by I started to seriously question who I was and what I stood for. Some bad things began to happen in my immediate environment. Violence, selfishness and death. I thought "Are my actions causing this?" How could it? Am I a bad person - It can't be.

Then I met her (whose name I shall not mention). What did she offer me? Love - Maybe, Pleasure - Surely, Religion - Somewhat, Torture - Absolutely, but Awakening - Definitely.

With her I understood that the reason I had lost myself - was mainly because, my environment dictated my personality. Now this is something we see everyday, but how many of us are truly aware of it?

From here, my life's digression is complete... I would, throughout my entire journey, always comeback to my centre which is helping people, trying to save the world, trying to make a difference.

I was happiest when I would make, someone smile... and that, to me, was obvious.

I ended up finding the path that I must follow, and yes knowing the path is different from walking it. The road is tough and although this blog series was a bit more personal that even I would like, I thought it would be necessary to know (a summary of) where I've been to know why I'm going, where I'm going.

I do stray at times, not drastically, but nevertheless my morals are deeper and more basic than most would like to imagine. And all things survives on the basics - it's the foundation that counts.

So Back on track after my personal recap... But on my next Blog (not post but blog) I'll be a bit more personal in terms of my writing and expand on my story. And with that I now return to the journey...

until next time:

Change the world
Change thyself